[02 Feb 2005|06:43pm] incase u haven't added my new one or u dun chek it. i'll repeat this cuz i'd love for u all to read it. well well well... i guess bitches realli are bitches huh? i thought atleast one of yall were different and had some form of a heart. guess i was wrong. i'm great, hey i got two ppl who are great ppl. you, you all got some messed up relationship going. lie to my face, twice in a row. happi doin that, then actin like u jus didn't? you think ur morals and judgements make you a good person. bull shit. it was great knowin you, tho i had better days without you. you kno theres much better ppl out there. have fun without me, cuz i guess u'v alreadi began :D! 1 note 'em| note!

[30 Jan 2005|02:22pm] impossible to erase the past. possible to create a future. heres to.. crushed endings of short periods, and new beginnings of reality and life. starts with --> cheque_plz ..u kno i'm too unskilled to rmb how to link things. 2 note 'ems| note!

[28 Jan 2005|09:30pm] i may b rewritting this? not sure, nothin showed up on lj, but o well tis very short. i deteste mis-leaders, tru criminals of the heart. fool someone once, i blame someone else. fool someone twice, i blame myself. fool someone three times, i blame you. shame. and i fukin forgot wat else i wrote, so :D ! note!

[27 Jan 2005|10:16pm] [ mood | cheerful ] poetry in english, i just love it! wai too rushed tho, must completely rewrite later. Have u ever had one of those days, where it's as if theres been a blizzard, on a cold winter day. Then at nite the storm is calm, the wind blows no more, and it feels like nothin went wrong. Although in your heart you know the day was bad, sudden fear, heartbreak and rejection, nothin in the world ever made you so mad. But now that that one ounce of sunshine shines, and there's that person you love bside you, the days events have all fallen behind. i had one of those days todai, u'd think it'd b total garbage. but i ended up harpii somehow :D thanks. i love you. LAWVEEE YOU!.no matter how misunderstood are frendship is, you'll alwais b My Best Fwend :D i love it how wen i least expect it, u feel the exact same wai about every lil talk and every moment well spent. bcuz wether we spend a minutes walk to ur house, an hour in class, a 1 1/2 hour bus ride to j.p., or a 2 hour journey to skiing its alwais grr-ate :D note!

GOAL SETTING :D [26 Jan 2005|05:06pm] [ mood | anxious ] yesterdai was fun and strange. but eh. SO TODAIIIIIIIIIIII. i'm SO SO SO enjoying my relaxation time at home. decided to catch up on all the oxygen magaznes lying around the house. and OH DO I LAWWWWVE them! i'm going to try to do the following: meal plan breakfast -> milk / greentea / tea -> oatmeal & boiled egg(s) / cereal / toast lunch -> anything thats not a mixture of fat + carbs -> NO MCDONALDS afterscoo -> fruit & nuts / some form of protein + carbs at home -> mini-meal / wrap / crackers wit veggies dinnare -> fruits / veggies / mini-meal 2h b4 bed -> unsalted nuts / some protein there thats 6 mini-meals :D also.... -> drink water (4 bottes thru out the dai) -> exercise between at home and dinnare (4 times a week) -> wen stress levels rise sit down and write -> BEGIN TO READDDDD!! -> comp 2 hours a dai max! weekends are an exception -> tv 2 hours a dai max! weekends exception here aswell -> major MAJOR major cut bak on junk -> letting raw emotions flow as they please but in an elegant manner :) -> begin yoga for abs workout -> REACH MY GOAL! -> 4 sets of 25 crunches a dai, b4 the treadmill -> stretches b4 crunches -> begin weekend workout schedule -> setting ALL my priorities straight &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&& -> ABSOLUTELY TRYYYYYY avoiding eating too mani mixtures of carbs + fat [its TERRIBLE for u] (one of them is used as energy and one is jus stored as fat!) -> OH AND... GET ATLEAST 8 HOURS OF SLEEP A DAI! (its vital to the energy burning process bcuz of growth) note!

can i jus sai....thank god :D [23 Jan 2005|11:19pm] [ mood | relieved ] ok..so ALOT HAD HAPPENED to some it up, so i'll try, in the most pleasant wai. plus i'm attempting to kill 2 birds with one stone here.. Thank God my brother lost his wallet, Thank God that nice man found it. Thank God we needed to visit Montreal, Thank God my Dad had an old tire to sell. Thank God we got a hot dog, rootbeer, and a new tire, Thank God in a few years my Dad can retire. Thank God my Dad's old enough to lose his spare. Thank God my Dad is wise enough to sense moments of despair. Thank God my sister's work ended at four, Thank God the snow did not fall anymore. Thank God our trip began with plenty of chocolate, Thank God we were tempted enough to entirely devour it. Thank God the trip began with an ounce of daylight, Thank God despite the weather i decided to stai bright. Thank God road trips consist of a lot of music and food, Thank God that nite so little people on the road were rude. Thank God for annonomous friends from the highwai, Thank God they didn't end up going our wai. Thank God trucks love to follow and torment us, Thank God their vehicles that I will never ever trust. Thank God the truck blinded us with the snow, Thank God all i saw was the mitey snow blow. Thank God my Dad lost control straight into a ditch, Thank God that bush warned me that my mood would switch. Thank God no one was hurt or affected by any pain, Thank God the cop randomly passing by kept me sane. Thank God those people were so sweet as to stop, Thank God they left as soon as they saw the cop. Thank God the popo was so kind and caring, Thank God he noticed that the snow was overbaring. Thank God he opened with window providing me with heat, Thank God he turned the music soothing us with beat. Thank God that dark and creepy motel was closed, Thank God the lady at the other place noticed it snowed. Thank God the motel owners were nice, Thank God we paid a somewhat decent price. Thank God the tow truck number that cop gave us worked, Thank God the tow truck man was a motherfukin jerk. Thank God we found a number for Upper Canada assitance, Thank God the guy only charged a couple hundred cents. Thank God we got the car back nice and cozy, Thank God we alwais had 5 seats and 5 people only. Thank God our car brakes decided to flop in the middle of an intersection, Thank God no cars came from any which direction. Thank God we got to my cousin's house, Thank God my mom has so much info to announce. Thank God my mom got all the shit-talk she deserved, Thank God my sister managed to keep her attitute reserved. Thank God the trip back was full of "SLOW DOWN", Thank God this time their was no weird sound. Thank God i loved my chili and rootbeer, Thank God that during this whole drip a shed not one tear. Thank God we got home as safe as can be, Thank God I'm finally getting some heat! lovely trip................ NOT! mont royale was ciaos or w/e! but overall, nice family bondage in the cop car! the best moments are wen ur stuffed in a car with an important official person bside you all with no a word spoken yet you here the soft music, the heating system, and ur deep breathes as u drive by ur car, the car is trapped, but u are safe, u can only feel so great for that. [i ignored grammar on that one :D] note!

[21 Jan 2005|05:01pm] [ mood | state of confusion ] i'm trulee confused. dun't u jus hate it sometimes, when ur not sure if someones talkin bout u, or if their jus talkin bout someone else. with all ur mite u hope its not you, but u have the greatest feeling that it is. yep. i need to start writing poetry again, i love the lack of grammatically correct rules. fuk for the past month i kept tellin myself to get a book. once again, i forgot. fukkk nothin to read on trip tmr. be bak from Mont Royall [montreal] on Mondai where i shall fukin have to start studyin, AGAIN! 2 note 'ems| note!

um ya. [20 Jan 2005|06:26pm] todaiiii was the science exam. studied hard, lack of sleep, weekend gone to waste. hopefulli i did well enuff on it, must keep up the mark for further radiology! after exam i swear we spent like 30-60 minutes deciding where to go. that part was gai. then dani couldn't get a ride, but he didn't mind "crutching" to wherever we went. chay go lazy and it was cold so stayed at will's. it was fun man, i was surprised. probably fun cuz we didn't sit in the living room watching them play halo. instead sat in kitchen eating pizza, rmbering good old days, and making up truth questions. haha funni funni. btw, its quite funni how some ppl have realli strangly weird minds and think of the craziest things in the world. then after hours or two of jus chilling and talkin, watched russel peters thing. HOLY FUK i get y everyone kept talkin bout it now, it was hilllllllllllarious! ahahha kevin lawwwved the white boi called his mom a bitch. then rest of the time everyone kept sayin "sommmebodies gonna get hurt" in the indian accent until we left. ahahha. i still think i laffed more at me and dani shifting kaya, and then kaya joining us in shifting chay. fell on the floor for that one. newais got home and now i'm so relaxing. 50 CENT AND GAME ARE ON 106 IN PARKKKKKKKKKKK! I MUST DEPART AND GO WATCH THAT NOW! LATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTE ARE -->> after watching 50 and the game... -i soooo retract my comment about the game being too squishy faced, i think i jus thought that cuz wen he raps he makes that face - otherwise he has the niccccest eyes, and other niceness to him, not to mention he seems so entirely sweet and righteous by tellin the gangs to stop with the picture of the handshakin and by tellin ppl to stop gettin knocked up. overall. game is fuking HAWWWWWWWWWWWWT. HAWWWWT. HAWT! [have u seen his arms?!?!?] -and omg FIIIIIFTY CENT IS FUCKIN soooo CUTEE, now normally i dun like fur on me and i wouldn't want that. but on him, HOLY SHIT, its fukin hott. he looks soooooooooooooooooooooooooo good. his smile, jus gorgeuse. his laff, jus so sweet. - GGGG-unit makes me harpi :D - must go finish watchin them preform! note!

[18 Jan 2005|11:22pm] it never hits u until afterwards. until after u'v fought wit ur sis over her not replying. until after u spend a dai upset at the fact that someone's acting rudely. until after u'v realized wat a fool u can b sometimes. spending the whole dai at school caring bout somthin that is nothin. waitin on somethin to make u feel better without realizing the person bside you. i feel like i'm gonna tear up and i'm far from even knowing the situation. i'm so srry dearrr. i never knew. plz rmb i'm here for u, if ever u need to talk. rite now u probably wanna pour it all out, but u have too much of this stength about u to do so. tru poetry. sadly its tru. all these young ppl dieing, its jus not right. note!

i think its the 15th. but not sure :| [15 Jan 2005|11:28pm] SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HARPI THIS WEEK IS OVER WITH :D --- fuk 2 more left! so heres how it is -speaking one spoken too, and sometimes on my own (equal balance i would say) -still laffing at the jokes and reminesing (i can not spell the word)about the few good old dais -still have strong parasitic feelings -still not an frend, but now neither an enemy -a simple classmate, frend of a frend, aquintance ...ohhhhhhhhhh and do i lowwwve it! haha and lowwwve that eminem song as well. theres a puppet on my harndd. haha and lookin sadly forward too... jan 16-19-study like mad fer science jan 20-SCIENCE EXAM jan 21-do ten times the history studying as normal jan 22-23-MONTREAL. yay but nay! 2 days less studying = from 80% down to 60% jan 24-studee exxxxxxxxtra hard. cuz of weekend missage. jan 25-HISTORY EXAM jan 26- NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SCHOOL!! YAYYYYY! NO STUDEE'ING! YAYYYYYYYY! shall soooooo relax! feb 1 math test! fukkkers. we just had one!! feb 17 SKIIIIIIIIIIIII TRIP. plz tell me ppl are comin. cuz i'm dying to go. memories of last year, so great! note!

[11 Jan 2005|07:07pm] yes..wat am i doing on here? i dunno. BUT I'M FUKING TIRED AND SOOOOO DISTRACTED. by absolutely nothin. sad! TODAI WE FINALLY FINISHED MATH CUMULATIVE --- fukkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkin hard! ..atleast that one question was. stayed at samantha's until like 6 doing history AND WE'RE STILL NOT EVEN HALF DONE. have to go again tmr afterscoo. darmmm her dog is freakin scaree. newais can NOT WAIT until all this is done. definetely takin my time off the work load and focusing on my belarvved arts. ---writing poooems, i have so much to sai, its overwelming. paintin some stuff, somthin i will paint, i want to. and DEFINETELY beginning to read after soooo long. i must, i must. for now. bak to to gai-ness. late are! BIIIIIIIIG IT UP! S.P.C --yaya? yeah yeah! scorpio's, gotta love em! note!

um.. [08 Jan 2005|07:34pm] [ mood | tired ] ok so i deleted all that. i dun like writin my days events unless i give u true fuk about them. and emotionally, i didn't. but rite now, i watched lil black book. its amazing how ur givin exactly wat u kno ur supposed to hear. sadly i kinna alreadi new the answer to that one. if i could get the answer to everythin with a movie i would. but its simply impossible. cuz u never will and never can. u gotta live it to recall the past correctly. mayb thats not wat lil black book meant, but i kinna felt it did. i dunno y thinkin of that made me think of how its mine own fault i confuse myself. but it did. i torture my mind until its full of thoughts going every which direct.but i emotionally express myself all the time, wen ever i want, i think i have no fear of that. but then again. wat if that fear only isolates around one or a couple of ppl in ur life. afraid to tell them wat u feel bcuz u'll lose a great frend by either scarin them awai or pissin them off until they sai fuk it and leave. afraid to jus vent. i barely sai this in my life so i'm bracing myself for it. here it goes. i dun't kno why i feel this wai, or wat it is i'm even feeling. i'm definetely the type of person who can vent everythin until i find the hiden answer. but i can't even vent. its like all those thoughts and ideas are trapped and can not b freed. its like god's trying to force me to realize : there is no answer. i rmb watching an episode of boy meets world where mr.fieni gives them a hwk question. and no one knos the answer. so they bug themselves for hours. and finally cory comes to conclusion that there is no answer. and mr.fieni says, i'm trying to get u guys to think like adults, and realize that in like their isn't alwais jus rite and wrong, or black and white. theres grey areas inbetween. as a result. i considerate that to mean : life is wat it is, u can't force urself into trying to make everythin so clear. sometimes things will alwaisss b foggy, and u gotta let that fog clear by itself. let the truth reveal its own self. :D lol i never planed to write ne of this. but it jus came out. my venting is done. c sometimes there is a reason to jus love lj for all it does. so the answer to my own question. ha there is none :D. i love that oh so verray much. note!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! :D [06 Jan 2005|09:13pm] [ mood | hyper-stressed.minushapiface ] ok HYPERNESS results from the following: -first having a week of staying up gettin less than 5 hours of sleep each dai -then being overrrr-stressed, annoyed, and jus plain upset -then see'in the guy u most crave walkin past u hooked ontop a white chiks arms, wearing glasses and an ugly ass baseball cap, yet u still find him unbeleivably hott and irrrrresistable -then after all that, FUKIN SCHOOL GIVES U MORE AND MORE HWK, MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEE & MOREEEEEEEEEEE -adds to OVER OVER OVERRRRRRRRRLY STRESS-AGE -then u blow up in ur mind and for that one dai. U COMPLETELY GIVE THE FUK UP [that dai is todai] -as u give up u do no hwk on that dai andd u try ur hardest to convince urself hes fukin ugly even wen u kno ur lieing to urself -that giving up leads to -GIVING UP ON PERSONAL GOALS SUCH AS HEALTHY EATING PLANS [giving up jus for that dai] thank goddddddd theres no coke in my house. or the whole 2 litres would b done in 5 minutes. -so therefore u get ur sister to go out and buy you MANY JUNKKKK such as the following: chocolate covered peanuts, creme cookies, ships, tamil take out, 400 calorie chocolate milk..and sadly more -and after all thatttttttttttttttttttttt you result is -SUGAR RUSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH OMG I'M SOOOOO FUKIN HYPER, AND ITS STRESSED HYPER WHICH IS FUKIN BAD. HOLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY FUK. if god wants to help. he'll take awai the pain that is caused by one single person atleast for oneeee MONTH. i can't stand to cccccccccc him even for 5 seconds of my life. god plz b nice to me, and do me that one favour. send him to artic or somthin [barbadoes or w/e = tannage = fuk you!! ARG]plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz do somthin :D I'M FUKINNNNNNNNNNNNNN GONE TO EAT MORE CHOCOLATE NOWWW late are folks [been reading waiii too much tkamb! ugh..it was good tho :|] IF I COULD KILL ANY MONTH...THERES NO DOUBT IN MY MIND THAT IT WOULD BE JANUARY.! 4 note 'ems| note!

damnnnnnn it. [03 Jan 2005|10:38pm] [ mood | tired ] school is gai. period. i jus spent hours readin. fukin fellllllll asleep durin like 3 of those hours!! it was a good nap. but i'm soo mad at myself. dunno y i'm on lj when i gotta go finish reading like fukin 1/4 of the book, and still manage to get some sleep. fuk the essay got no time for that todai. so gotta spend all of wednesdai nite workin on it. soooo much english. booooo. school sux ass! i feel like i'm tellin war stories these dai's. hopefulli i won't end up actualli tellin war stories. i pray to god that my dad is proved wrong on this assumtion. cuz damnnnn its not a good one. found out wai too much detail of a subject i'm trying to erase from memory. and its all my fault. i asked for it. literalli. i asked for it! damn me. no more of this, fuk the car and all the other good stuff. btw. did i mention. SCOOL IS GAIIIIII! ...again 3 note 'ems| note!

[30 Dec 2004|08:15pm] i kno, i'm politically insane these days + can't stop expressing my POV on LJ when i get the chance. but ughh so much to sai, but i'll jus sai w/e comes out. i'm soo proud of my dad, which strangly i never thought i would b. since his fashion sense is wack, and his view on the world is usualli wai to stereotypical, but this week, well todai, in the car, during drive to markville, i realized how happi i am that hes my dad. we had the MOST informative talk todai. soooo much i never knew about my father, never thinking he would b that open with me. i kno its weird to sai this but its almost as if i was speaking with a realli smart older friend....yes i said friend :|. almost reminded me of my logical big bro, ahah brother bear. but newais i'v been sucked into the world of politcal views, and internation news. and quite frankly, i'm enjoying it :D. ohhhh the greatness of the winter break, and year i shall realli miss it. much love to>> BC <3* [girls nite. repeat nex year.] LAMB [lindars binder speaks volumes] BAM! [afterscoo puppet special. yes u kno it.] AND [logical+understanding= i luvvv u] BAK [tru brown girls + me :D] MAD [for some reason, the rear moments work for me.] ok. so this draws the line to this year. won't b updatin this until nex year. everyone has made it a great one. CHEERS to the ski trip, girls nite, wendy's, minnay's house, all those ppl and everyone else, the beginning of a parasitic free year, and the end to Sam :D!!!! new year, shall bring muchhhhhh bettare things. HAVE A HARPIIII NEW YEAR!!! note!

can i jus sai this one thing [29 Dec 2004|09:05pm] TAMIL TIGERS ARE NOT FUKIN BAD PPL IGNORE ALL THAT SHIT YOU HERE ON TV. I'M NOT SAYING THIS OUT OF BEING BIAST. I'M SAYING THIS CUZ ITS TRU AND EVERYONE NEEDS TO LISTEN UP. THEY SAI THAT THE TAMIL TIGERS CAUSED THE CIVIL WAR, WELL MAYB THEY DID, BUTT THEY HAD GOOD REASONS. PLEASEEEEEEE DUN THINK THAT DONATING MONEY TO SRI LANKA WOULD B BAD BECAUSE TAMIL TIGERS MITE GET HOLD OF IT. YOU KNOW THE TAMIL TIGERS AREE THE ONLY FUKIN PPL IN SRI LANKA WHO CARE ABOUT THE TAMILS, UNLIKE THE GOVERMENT. IF THE GOVERNMENT OF SRI LANKA GETS HOLD OF THE MONEY THEY WILL ONLY HELP THOSE IN THE SOUTH [i think, or it could b the north but thats not the point] THEIR ONLY GONNA HELP THE AREA WHERE SINGALESE PPL LIVE. NOW THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH THEM HELPING SINGALESE PPL. I'M NOT SAYING THAT ATT ALL. I'M SAYING THEY DUN GIVE A FUK ABOUT TAMILS BECAUSE OF THIS CIVIL WAR. SO TIGERS ARE HELPIN THE OTHERS WHO NEED HELP AS WELL. I GUESS THATS BAD, BCUZ BOTH SIDES THAT WERE EFFECTED NEED HELP. I'M JUS SAYIN, PLZ DUN REFUSE TO GIVE MONEY OR DONATIONS THAT WILL B GIVEN TO SRI LANKA JUS BCUZ U THINK THE TIGERS ARE NO GOOD AND WON'T USE THE MONEY WISELY. INSTEAD IF U DO DONATE MAKE SURE THE PLACE U DONATE TO WILL EQUALLI SPLIT THE DONATION TO ALL PARTS THAT NEED IT MOST. ...ugh i'm so sick of comin to LJ..but this news has got to me, and i feel the need to update wen i discover somthin new. this distaster has been horrible. but sadly, or happily, i dunno wat it is. but its given me new knowledge i never knew. added to my support for my country. dug deep down in my roots and pulled out all these feelings of caring that i never felt. i finally somewhat understand what my father says. but i dun feel the extent of pain he feels that i would hate every person from an area for it. its jus like with bush. u can't hate all americans jus bcuz majority of them voted for him. so hope u ppl hear my words. THANKS. PEACE! [those words mean even more now, its time the civil war got recognized. hopefulli it'll come to an end somehow.] note!

[28 Dec 2004|10:00pm] ok so first of all-- been watching the news. found out new info. hope that help is given and my dads predictions don't come tru. and happi that our call got thru and their all alrite :D. as for the rest of those families, may their loved ones rest in peace. PEACE. andddddddddd this week, i have become 3/4 fully addicted to two xbox games: x-men + madden 2005 x-men>> playin with the sis and bro VERII funnn, ahaha love yellin at my sis wen she slows us down, feel shameful wen i slow us down. but my icemanDUDE powers areeee amazing, you CAN NOT handle them. ahahhaha loveeeeeee it. too bad its not my game :(. boooo! madden2005>> football, WHO WOULD HAVE EVER THOUGHT I WOULD B PLAYING FOOTBALL, ESPECIALLY THE GAME?? welllllll now i am, and its FUN, omg makes me think of our flagfootball days and how much i musttt ask ms. foley to play football once again wen summer starts. oh man, its jokes messing up. my brother gets so pissed and gives up on teaching me. then i have to pause to game because i'm laffing sooo hard at pissing him off that my shoulder bones hurt :|. i kno shoulder bones? yes. weird eh? yes. but newais, getting the hang of playing, and its truly funn. oh man if only we have girls football or somthin, minus the tackling and mud :|. YESS GOOOOO GUYS RUGBY TEAM! I'MMM soooooo watching when they start playing again. now theres two reasons :D. andddddddddddddd FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK! [DOES NEBODY NOTICE FUKINNNN SCHOOL IS STARTING UP AGAIN, SOOOOON TIME] >>i have absolutely nooooooo hwk done &&&& i have too still read half of to kill a mockingbird, i will start tmr, i will >>andd i'm so not readi to let go of my dais of sleeping in yet. damnnnn it! AND i have once again failllled to succeed and do wat i said i would. so this time i willl do it. ok? yes! tmr i shall >> start hwk / reading >> begin masks and pampering >> anddd start eating fukin healthy, which includes water. hooray for me i drank one todai! :D....:( i kno its not good enuff. but TMR I SHALL :D lol. stole this off huda but deleted half the questions. jus didn't like some of those questions that much, or felt they were unneccasary [1] when and how did we meet: [2] what did you first notice about me: [3] what do you like most about me: [4] are we friends: [5] have you ever seen me cry: [6] describe me in four adjectives: [7] if we could spend a day together what would we do: [8] have we ever gotten in a fight: [9] if you could give me a present what would it be: [10] what do you really think of me: [11] is there anything you dont like about me: [12] whats your name: [13] am i nice to you: [14] what do you call me by: note!

[27 Dec 2004|07:38pm] [ mood | devastated ] damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn I'M FULLY BLOATED GUY!! welll thats wat happens wen the whole world feeds me and i hungerly accept. but newaisss. wether or not u ppl kno. sri lanka, yes my country even tho i dun't show it much, was hit by a major tsunami. andd OVER 12 000 16000 21 500 PPL DIED MOSTLY CHILDREN AND ELDERLY PPL and thats just in Sri Lanka ALTOGETHER WITHIN ALLLLLL THE COUNTRIES OVER 60000!!!!!!!!! HAVE DIED, DROWNED, AND THEIR ARE STILL MANI BODIES UNFOUND AND OTHER UNIDENTIFIED. i realli hope everyone i kno is alrite, even tho i never met them, i dun't wanna lose the chance to get to meet them. so sad lookin at that tv screen seeing all these children just dead, it makes it even harded knowing alot of them could barely survive each dai with all the poverty and lack of food and proper shelter. makes me feel even worse that theres nothin i can do, especially wen my dad keeps reminding me of wat happened and how bad it is.the thing is my parents act like its the biggest disaster that ever happened. wen plenty worse has happened b4 in other places. i guess its jus that thats where they grew up, thats were their family lives, and thats where so many ppl are struggling that bugs them. i wish i could help. i feel so useless not being able to do nothin, but my selfishness is completely holding me bak. i dunno y. even if i could, me myself am broke, have given awai alot of old clothes alreadi, bareli have nethin left that i could give. but ya, i'll definetly try my hardest to digg out all the clothes i dun need that are perfectly good. who knos, mayb the cuzin who everyong says looks like me will get it lol. hmm actualli my dad said 75% of his family lives further from the coastline. but mayb not. still, someone will get it :D. i hope them, and everyone else, ppl in america who suffered from past earthquakes, ppl in taiwan and india and indonesia and all those places. i hope they all somehow find a wai. wouldn't dare want them to miss out. we must do it bigg wen school starts up again, MUST collect like crazy. if not no wrries me and kaya will get somthin started 2 note 'ems| note!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! [25 Dec 2004|10:20pm] yay its christmas!!...but strangly i find it to be just another dai, sometimes with gifts involved. i try my best nottt to kill the spirit :D so yay! newais...watched LOVEactualli and TWO BROTHERS!!!!! yesterdai..well finished watchin it todai..BUT NEWAIS. first mustttttttttt comment on TWO BROTHERS, can i jus sai, and i said this over and over again to my sister, u dunnnt need a movie with talkin animals to c wats going on, all you do is look into their eyes. andd wow those tigers are amazing actors cuz i felt as if it was all happening rite infront of my eyes. I LOVE THOSE GORGEUSE[when they were older] and ADORABLE[when they were younger] tigerssssssssss. omgggg their my little babies. srry butttttt ANYONE who knos me..well least half the ppl..kno that i ABSOLUTELY LOVE, ADORE, CARE ABOUT tigerrrrrrrrrrrrs. my most favouritest! so beautiful and loving they are. fuk all that beleive in hunting animals like tigers and lions and so on...and fuk those that beleive that tigers are crazee man-eating animals and should be killed for that reason. i beleive jus like any other creature including humans they harm when being harmed. and well if they need food,, then wat can i sai. nothing realli, so i try and not think bout that part. but newais PLEASEEE I'M BEGINNING YOU ALL...GOOOOOOOOO SEE THIS MOVIE. you'll never understand it until u c this, c how theres only less than 5000 tigers left in the world todai. c that hunters who hunt animals jus for fur when we don't NEED it to survive aree so cruel. c that theres beautiful loving animals deserve to live and c the future. please c it, i feel sooo strongly about this. i've done like a million zillion reports, essays, speeches and all on tigers. oh man feel like i'm gonna start bawling now. jus ya, everyone do me a favor, and SEE THIS MOVIE. my dream has changed a bit. i kno i used to sai..well atleast to some of u that i wanna own a tiger, u kno get realll rich someone to fufill this dream, cuz trust me its one of my top 3 dreams. but newais to own a tiger and have a little park for it, or own one that lives in a zoo, or sponsor one on one of those tv things. but well. my dream still stays strong, but slightly altered. i'v never felt this selfless, if thats the word? opposite of selfish..but i feel for these tigers soo much. i kno its sooo hard to become truly successful, but rite now i wanna do it jus for them..and well a little bit for a house for myself lol..but newais. before i wanted to own a tiger for myself, comfort it, love it, care for it. but seeing this movies its like looking into their hearts wen their takin awai from family and the jungle. i would never want to take that from them ever. i want them to b happi and healthy and alive. so wen i'm older and I WILL make enuff money and save up for years in order to make this dream come tru. -my dream is to make a preserve for these animals, feed them, and keep them safe. some how i'll help these tigers and have a reserve for them. without removing anything, and giving them WIDEEEE boundries to run play and enjoy. it'll b the jungle, but one thats protected. wether i do this on my own or with a huge group. I WILL SOMEHOW these tigers truly deserve it. it'll b for KAMAL AND SANGHA- ohh man their sooo beautiful. my blue eyes and my brownish-red eyed cuties. moving on..which i'm finding it hard to do. loveactualli was alrite, lol porn in it, realli gai porn tho, no hott guy. but that wasn't the point. point was, love is great in any form u get it, but make sure u show it. the only story line in that movie that left me watching it was like 8 year old that was in love lol. it was cute tho. andd ya, mann dunno bout shopping tmr SO CROWDED, never go on boxing dai. but its gonna b SARA'S BDAI!..HAPPI BIRTHDAI SAH RAHHHH! 1 note 'em| note!

[22 Dec 2004|09:58pm] eh mite aswell make one things i rmb / shall not forget from 2004...[good or bad] -first major examss, hours of science study-age -amazingly funni ski trip,(bekka not stopping, bus ride wit dani, lindar and eminem's mom, linda speaking with "frend") -getting caught, then goin shoppin that week wit winnipeg, crying my wonderful wai out of things, but sadly losing the trust -final exams of gr 9, not studying enuff had mind set on other things, dumb i was dumb,dumb. thank god. -sleepingggg in on summare days, LOVED IT -a wonderfulll, the best, fite i'v ever had in my entire life, happiness for sure as a result - THE PUPPET SHOW, omg minnay and bekkors i'll never forget that, i still dye now, ahhaha go lil slinky thing! -"was britney spears there??" ahahha :| - FRIDAI girls nite in! -bdai at wendy's wit bccc! -embarrasing fall in gym -car ride..um that was somthin -abc dinnare wit brownie, leah, bekkors and in generall... -times sitting infront of tv, watching videos wit reebokka and minnay ..sometimes my loseare too :D -my talks with the following smartass/amazing ppl : double n, otani, minnafred, bekkors, my loseare [lindar], browniee, w2. thanks! -all bc moments thru thick or thin. -my one-on-one chats in the food court, or corner of mcdonalds -ne moments of seeing the one-and-onli ..sam.. -all of events on last dai of school b4 winter holidais..lol kevin and the whip cream -hating how if i was happi u weren't -fites, mani, mani, fites. yes memorable .......and that is bout all i rmb rite now. late are 5 note 'ems| note!

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